I have been purging for so many years, meanwhile my body itself seems to assist me in getting absolutely everything out of my body, one way or the other.
A maximum of 20 minutes after I throw up the first time there will be a rumbling in my bowels and I’ll need to run to the toilet.
“Natural” vomiting is a way for your body to get rid of dangerous, possibly toxic and lethal foods in you. Vomiting is caused by a stimulus of the brain and usually causes only the organs iof your upper body to be working, so I don’t know if your body “getting rid” of possibly dangerous stuff the other way round is “natural” like this as well, but it seems like that’s what my body is doing.
Everything in my body is flushed out one way or the other without the need of laxatives or anything like that.
It is amazing. It is disgusting.
It is also incredibly painful.
I can’t recall a time when NOTHING hurt, now my entire body hurts all the time, from head to toe.
I wish my body would work in a normal way
August 2010
Maybe if I remembered that, I wouldn’t be so fat.
I’m supposedly in recovery. I have a team of doctors and therapists and nutritionists helping me. I’m doing ok but I want nothing more than to be sick again. And I feel even sicker when I read these secrets about people wishing they were in my place. I wish I was grateful for the help that I’m getting. I wish I wanted it.
I’ve had eating problems for about five years now, and two years ago I was diagnosed with EDNOS. My disorder is one of the main reasons my girlfriend is now bulimic. She doesn’t admit it, but I know it is and so does everyone else.
I know I’m probably just imagining it, but I feel like they’ve been bringing it up a lot more lately.
I’m usually just excited. But now I’m glad because I’ll be able not to eat all day because of being busy and my mom won’t be able to watch what and if I’m eating. It’ll be a lot easier to tell her I’ve eaten something at school than if I’m at home and she can actually keep track of my meals.
