October 2011
32430) Today I ate x, my first solid food in y...
32429) My mom just asked if I had lost weight. "Oh...
32428) I look at the photos of me when I ate what...
I’m not going to lie: I don’t like me in those photos. I’d even go as far and say I hate me in those photos. People ask me what’s wrong and I can’t tell them. I eat and I hate myself, and I’d hate myself anyway. I just want to like me. People tell me to eat, but I’m doing this for me and certainly not for them. Now, I don’t take photos, not even with...
32427) I’m tired of him telling me I’m not good...
32426) I completely lost all control today. I...
32425) He's trying to bulk up, I'm trying to slim...
32424) My parents despise each other but stayed...
32423) I remember how this started.
With a few high school girl friends, I was at my first university party. Me and another friend, we were really upset because no one showed any interest in both of us, so we sat by the pool and watched our other friends flirting with older, cute and nice guys. We tried talking to them, but they ignored us. The girl by my side then said to me, and I had to agree, “We’re probably alone and...
32422) When I was young I hated everything about...
32421) I love my boyfriend to death, but he is so...
32420) I always look at skinny girls and try to...
32419) Seriously, mother? Every time I don't eat I...
32418) My friends and family tell me I'm lucky to...
32417) Every time I eat, I get disgusted to the...
32416) I tell everyone I'm following a healthy...
32415) I've purged and purged all week and now...
32414) My mom just spent over $800 on my teeth...
32413) Most days, I feel so fat and ugly that I...
32412) All I ever do now is compare. Compare...
32411) I feel like I’m going insane.
I’m pretty sure I’m dying, and I wish I didn’t mean that literally. i can feel my organs failing. It feels like my heart can stop at even given time. I’ve gotten so sick from doing this to myself. My face scares me. I’m scared if I go to sleep now, that I won’t wake up. But it doesn’t matter. I feel completely fat and disgusting.
32410) He asked me if I was eating properly. He...
32409) I was watching a program about pregnancy...
32408) I often say ''Those legs are to die for''...
32407) I've been purging *everything* I've...
32406) People think I'm self centered because when...
I HAVE to have my way. But that’s only because I HAVE to eat what I already planned for myself or it just feels all wrong. But I could never explain my strange relationship with food to anyone, so they all get annoyed with me when I insist upon getting food at certain places.
32405) You don't love me. I can see it in your...
32404) I'm only 15 years old. I'm way too young to...
32403) My sister is 3 years older than me and I'm...
I constantly reminding her of how beautiful she is because she’s going to college soon and I don’t want her to get an ED. I’m so worried she’ll turn into the monster that I am. Through all of this, I wonder, why isn’t she concerned about me? Can’t she see that I’m lost in this world? That I’m all alone and need a helping hand? Someone help me
32402) Tonight, I binged on cookie dough. On the...
32402) My friends were showing me pictures of...
32401) I lie.
Then, I lie to cover the I thought would be only lie. Then, I lie to cover that lie. Then, another lie to cover that lie. Then, a lie I tell myself will be the final lie. Then… I lie again
32400) I've wanted people to notice since the...
32399) I just want to be left alone with my fat...
32398) I feel so alone
32397) I feel like I have a whole secret life no...
32396) No one knows who I really am. No one.
32395) I've been starving/bingeing/purging for...
32394) No one understands it. No one understands...
32393) This started as a way to become thin and...
32392) I haven't eaten for x hours but as I'm...
32391) I'm scared my brother knows about my...
Once he told me the bathroom smelled like throw-up and asked me if I was purging.. of course I lied but he asked me if I was sure and I said yes. Then, I had a dream that he told my parents about that and how I don’t eat most of the time. It scared me to death
32390) Having an ED made me feel like I was...
32389) My friend took our other friend to Florida...
32388) It's my birthday. I just had a semi binge...
32387) Food consumes my life, but I will do...
32386) My friends were commenting on who's lost...
32384) Sometimes I get scared that looking at...
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32385) This eating disorder has been with me for 3...
32383) I haven't gone out for weeks. I don't want...
32382) I've always been big, but recently I...
