March 2012
42474) I don't want to be this way, definitely...
I want to be healthy, happy, and lead a normal, successful life. I want to have relationships with friends, perhaps date for once, and see myself get into a great undergraduate school for pre-med. This eating disorder is ruining my life, and my dreams. People will tell you they want to be this way, they love it, and thrive on it, but I know I have more to live for.. I need recovery.
42473) My friends came over to get ready and were...
One of them said she was at her highest weight ever and felt like such a porker… She’s my height and her highest weight is way lower than my current weight. Who’s the porker now?
42472) Someone found out about my ED and I heard...
42471) I'm tired of being fat. For 2012 I stocked...
42470) I hate me, not the disorder. This is why we...
42469) Eating Holiday dinner with the family. I...
42468) When someone says "You're not anorexic, are...
42467) My Christmas dinner consist of two bottles...
42466) The only way I can start to end this, if at...
42465) My parents force me to eat every meal. I...
42464) When people ask me why I'm vegan, my first...
42463) I broke my pants today because I had too...
42462) I just wish I were pretty.
As a feminist, I know that my self worth is so much more than my looks, that there are so many things more important than my looks. I know that looks won’t last, while personality and intelligence will. I know that focusing so much on looks is shallow, vain, superficial and hypocritical. I know that in a perfect world everyone would just love their bodies, no problem. But I still wish so much,...
42461) When my Mum was a teenager, she was...
People called her anorexic even though she wasn’t and they made her feel worthless and hate herself. It kills me to know that I’m wishing upon myself the thing which caused her so much pain. And it kills me to see how much I’m hurting her but yet I can’t stop myself.
42460) No one cares about me unless I'm wasting...
42459) I spent half of my Christmas weekend in...
42458) Every time I see Santa, it reminds me why I...
42457) I don't starve for attention. I starve to...
42456) When you get nauseous, and it's triggering....
42455) Yesterday I was catching up with a friend,...
42454) My best friend is overweight and always...
42453) I'm in such a hurry for these holidays to...
42452) Everywhere I look I see couple photos....
42451) For Christmas, my parents bought me clothes...
42450) My parents refuse to buy my real size in...
42449) The clothes I wore when I was x are too big...
42448) It's easy for me to hide my bulimia from my...
42447) I want to get help, but I'm just too...
42446) x whole years and I'm not even close to be...
42445) My family and friends thinks I'm good...
My boobs have gotten bigger. They don’t know the numbers on the scale are down, drastically. The reason for this? I’ve completely stopped my cycle of binging and purging in order to keep my breast growth pills down. Now I just don’t eat. I’m such a disgusting person.
42444) I only asked for a treadmill for christmas,...
42443) Today I woke up with a bad stomach ache,...
42442) I can't even explain my feelings when I...
42441) Almost every song I listen to is about the...
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42440) Oh my gosh, I used to be so skinny... I...
But I recovered back to my normal weight and I am now happier and healthier than I ever was before. It was a hard process, but it’s worth it. And I am proud of myself for all my heart work. So everyone reading this, I know you are all strong people and I know you can make it through this very difficult disease. I’ll be here cheering you on :)
42439) There's a war within me, and it's decision...
42438) Maybe if I lose just x more, my mom will...
42437) Sometimes I just sit and read this blog for...
42436) I'll get help when I'm thin enough for...
42435) I'm too weak to have an eating disorder.
42434) All these pieces of paper covered in...
42433) When you play scrabble with your friends...
42432) The worst part for me is feeling it, as I'm...
I feel every single morsel seeping into me, and even when I’m having a highly animated and interesting conversation, I just can’t help but mentally ‘trace’ where the food goes, knowing that it’s harming me. I don’t want to be this way, I really don’t. But I can’t stop thinking about it.
42431) I don't know what's worse, feeling full and...
42430) I'm going to my cousin's house for almost a...
I won’t be able to exercise and they don’t give two damns about what they eat so they only have full fat foods. I’m going to disappoint everyone and get so fucking fat. I’m so petrified of not being able to fit in my new jeans from Christmas.
42429) That moment when you're petting your...
42428) Sometimes I try to scare myself out of...
42427) My college roommate said casually that she...
42426) Pretty girls dont eat. So I'm a pretty...
42425) When I talk to my friends, I purposely...
